Clarification, Gentlemen

It has come to my attention that people have become concerned regarding my attitudes and behavior with respect to my soon-to-be-ending army life. Most regard it as a move to the dark side, especially with "excused accordingly" in effect till after ORD and my considerations for OOC-ing int spec course very much in place. As such, I find it befitting to clarify my position, for I'm not one who acts without considering consequences. In fact, these actions were taken in full knowledge of consequences, at least, those pertaining to myself.

First, on the issue of diametrical change. To people who've worked with me like Zhenghong and Sherwin (not berne, of course.. he'd know better haha), I seem to have gone against what I used to stand for: working hard, doing things the right way etc. Superficially, that is the case. More than that, though, it would be appropriate to realize that circumstances have changed. Fundamentally, my goals have not. In training, it is in my best interests to secure respect and avoid people getting the idea that i'm slack, such that I have bargaining power when it comes to the most important thing in army life: SLACKING. getting days off, essentially, is impossible when commanders have a bad impression. On the micro level, the only reason why I decide to sleep early during training time is so I get enough sleep (reminder: i love sleeping); the reason I decide to wake early is to beat the toilet rush so I can go down to wherever we need to fall in and, you guessed it, SLEEP. so, I am consistent. I have not changed my stand.

Secondly, addressing Sherwin's question: "... how you change until like that [i.e. the status quo]". To this, the best answer would be "the same reason they, whoever 'they' are, can decide to mess up my last three weeks in army before i ORD, spoil my plans, burn my off and proceed to impose a ban on me clearing my DESERVED off even if i OOC and go back to 42." Now does that make sense? to a regular, probably. to an officer, probably. if so, DO IT TO YOURSELVES. If you have the right to impose your morality and values on me, then don't blame me when I fight back. Let's just make it clear here: I've NEVER bowed down voluntarily to anyone (yea maybe except God, but he ain't human so that doesn't count). I respect, but never to the extent of BLIND OBEDIENCE. IF you expect me to, so to speak, "LAN LAN SUCK THUMB", then honestly you don't know me well enough. Circumstances are man-made, and are hence man-modifiable. There.

Finally, but clearly not the end since I expect more attempts at curtailing my liberties on the way, this goes as a amicable warning. All this time I've decided to play along with your little "i have rank therefore I PWN you" game - wake up to reality, idiots. This isn't the real world. Go fight your imaginary enemies - I don't give a hoot. Try pulling me into your little make-believe world one more time and you'll regret you ever enlisted me and put me through everything you did. I planned for my tolerance to last with the previous flow of events, such that when i ORD i'll minimally be AMICABLE - I won't kill. Now you've exhausted the last vestiges of my tolerance, don't blame me if i turn murderous. Trust me, I'm capable of it, for "The pen (or in this case, keyboard and printer) is mightier than the sword (or your rifles, tanks, whatnot, no thanks to your hierarchy being no more than a sad cycle where the bottom is really the top. don't get it? go ruminate, cows)".

I'm proud to oppose.