NOT surreal.

it's a common thing, when milestones are passed, for people to start remarking "i can't believe it's over", "it's so surreal", "whoa, it's finally passed.. so fast.."?

NOT THIS TIME.

it's over. the outfield to end all outfields. trust me, i won't be there for reservist outfields. i will find 10 million reasons for me to stay in a tonner, tentage, bunk - anywhere but tvma. in reservist, i will be CPL - trooper, no responsibility, no obligation.

just like ben and yao guo :D

so now that it's passed, we count to the inevitable end. 112 days away as of date of typing, a day that cannot, will not be changed. sunday, the 4th of november 2007, will end the stasis of my life. enlistment day feels just like yesterday, and everything in between seems (rather, is) like some meaningless blur of time's passage. honestly, i can't even recall what we did on mission 2 (not without a significant amount of effort at least).

so, gentlemen, i'm now here to collect my off, clear them and screw off (as in, "Screw off" not screw -> off). get my pink ic back and that's the end of 1yr 10 months (of wastage, learning the unorthodox skills of life, getting our minds twisted and corrupted big time, becoming the scum of the battallion.. yea, what a meaningful time i'd say).

so yes, not surreal, no "i can't believe it", no "wah, so fast..".

of course i believe atec's over, of course i believe ord's coming, of course it's not "SO FAST". please, it's been too long. WAY TOO LONG.