it's the chase for the impossible that's keeping me on the move. ironically, if all that i wanted were right in front of me, i'd stop moving. right away. just, stop.

so as much as possible, keep moving; keep moving away from me, so that i may not stay still; stop only when you deem me fit.

Lead me on

Taking the chance to unwind a little from all the insanity that has been the main, if only, thing this month (more of the last, though), I watched what could arguably be the BEST movie ever, for the 100th time (probably) - Top Gun. Yes, Tom Cruise and Kelly McGinnis; Maverick and Goose. For the record, this IS the reason why my jungle hat says "Maverick" as well.

In addition to that, I managed to get my hands on the Top Gun Soundtrack:
1. Danger Zone - Kenny Loggins
2. Mighty Wings - Cheap Trick
3. Playing With The Boys - Kenny Loggins
4. Lead Me On - Teena Marie
5. Take My Breath Away - Berlin
6. Hot Summer Nights - Miami Sound Machine
7. Heaven In Your Eyes - Loverboy
8. Through The Fire - Larry Greene
9. Destination Unknown - Marietta
10. Top Gun Anthem - Harold Faltermeyer & Steve Stevens
11. Memories - Harold Faltermeyer
12. Great Balls Of Fire - Jerry Lee Lewis
13. You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin - The Righteous Brothers
14. Playing With The Boys (Mix) - Kenny Loggins

And there's no tenderness like before in your fingertips. It makes me just feel like crying, baby, cos baby, baby I know it - you've lost that lovin' feeling, wh-ohoh that lovin' feelin. you've lost that lovin' feelin now it's gone, gone, gone.

Wasn't too long ago, the last time I saw Top Gun. At Ben T's house, if I'm not wrong. Before that, though, was a really long time ago. Listening to the soundtrack, the scenes where each of the songs are played (some aren't played in the movie, but for those more prominent ones) pop up naturally in my head. Guess it's like 15 years ago or so, once more. Kinda miss those days.

Negative, Ghostrider, the pattern is full.
*FLYBY, COFFEE SPILLS* (:
something I'd do.. and I was this close to signing for air force in BMT. wonder if I should've. nah.

For now, though - to all the guys who've been working with me all this time and keeping me remotely sane in all that's been thrown at me:

I will take it to the wire now
Until every race is run
I'll go straight into the fire now
Until every day is done
Voices say -- break away
Live each night as if each moment
Was the only one

-Through The Fire, Larry Greene, Top Gun OST (1986)

do it right, won't you?

to the dude who didn't do it right.

I've no idea what you perceive your friends as, but I certainly hope you aren't seeing them as a statistic. treat them with the respect they deserve, won't you?

Cry Me A River

Great cover of a previously uninteresting track! Thanks ben heh.

You told me you loved me, why did you leave me all alone?
Now you tell me you need me, when you call me on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused with some other guy
Your bridges got burned, now it's your turn to cry
Cry me a river, Cry me a river, Cry me a river, Cry me a river

Hello, world

Photos from France and Germany are up on facebook. Public links to the albums are here.

In reverse chronological order,
Colmar & Riquewihr, Alsace - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29999&l=794dd&id=500345338
Strasbourg, Alsace - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29997&l=49076&id=500345338
Reims, Verdun, Vezernay, Champagne - http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29996&l=b83ae&id=500345338
Paris in 3 parts:
3. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29995&l=ab260&id=500345338
2. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29991&l=a12c1&id=500345338
1. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29989&l=76e93&id=500345338
Rudesheim & Frankfurt, Germany, also in 3 parts:
3. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29988&l=0e9d9&id=500345338
2. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29986&l=a0ad1&id=500345338
1. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29984&l=1c556&id=500345338

Post-mortem? of course, no one died. however, in the spirit of post mortems, i suppose things could've went better for the trip. reflections for my personal consumption heh.

coming back earlier was the right thing to do, without doubt, if not only because of frozen roads and gastric flu, the latter having left me with a bloated digestive tract for the past week.

You're finally here heh

Six Hundred and Sixty Four days ago, they took away my liberties, my rights, my civility. Now, it's all come back. M*%$&$f&%#%%s (heh it so happens that the cover of Hallowed Be They Name by Cradle Of Filth's playing).

If I remember correctly, the song I'd resolved to play the night before ORD was "It Ends Tonight" by the All American Rejects. I suppose this would do for now. heh. It's hard to describe the feeling, though. Surreal would be one good word, albeit heavily overused.

Had dinner at Tony Roma's with Calvin last night, and it didn't seem so long ago we were Foxtrot 2 Sect 3 Bed 7 and 8 at SISPEC; not so long ago we had shots of tequila, declaring "ONE YEAR TO ORD!" at MoS; not so long ago when "aiya, wait until after ORD then say" was the ultimate excuse for procrastination - ORD happens to be sunday, or rather, friday if my news sources are reliable. So we've survived - now what?

For starters, I've got SAT 2 chem this sat and I'm kinda screwed. Shall get to work on that once I'm done here. Noted (a word whose use has become less than comfortable for me). Actually it's just the inorganic parts, but I won't wager too much on my capabilities. After that, it's off to Frankfurt, then the northern regions of France. Damn my passport isn't here. Shall have to check that out. SHIT.

And you, this is for you: Take your time to sort it out - we, or at least, I, know all too well the rationale behind "more haste, less speed". I don't REQUIRE anything; in fact, all that is so far has exceeded reasonable expectations and greed isn't a path I intend to head down. It's probably an apt coincidence that I'll be heading off for a fortnight, giving you a chance to work it all out. I hope whatever conclusion you get to is favorable, but the bottom line should be your benefit.

Come on feel the noize, girl rock your boys, we'll get wild wild wild; wild wild wild. - Cum on Feel the Noize, Quiet Riot.

Someday I'll Be Saturday Night :)

Hey man, I'm alive, I'm taking each day a night at a time
I'm feeling like a monday but someday I'll be saturday night

Hey my name is jim where did i go wrong?
My life's a bargain basement all the good shit's gone
I just can't hold a job, where do i belong?
I'm sleeping in my car, my dreams moved on.

My name is billy g my love is bought and sold
I'm only sixteen i feel a hundred years old
My foster daddy went, took my innocence away
The street life ain't much better but at least i'm getting paid and

Tuesday just might go my way - can't get worse than yesterday
Thursdays, Fridays ain't been kind
but somehow i'll survive

Hey man, i'm alive, i'm taking each day a night at time
Yeah i'm down but i know i'll get by
hey hey hey hey man, gotta live my life
like i ain't got nothing but this roll of the dice
I'm feeling like a monday but someday i'll be saturday night

now i can't say my name or tell you where i am
i wanna blow myself away don't know if i can
i wish that i could be in some other time and place
with someone else's soul, someone else's face

oh tuesdays just might go my way, can't get worse than yesterday
thursdays, fridays ain't been kind
but somehow i'll survive

hey man i'm alive i'm taking each day a night at a time
yeah i'm down, but i know i'll get by
hey hey hey hey man i'm gonna live my life
i'm gonna pick up all the pieces and what's left of my pride
i'm feeling like a monday but someday i'll be saturday night

someday i'll be saturday night, i'll be back on my feet, i'll be doing alright
it may not be tomorrow, baby that's okay
i ain't going down, gonna find a way

hey hey hey man i'm alive
i'm taking each day a night at a time
yeah i'm down, but i know i'll get by

hey hey hey hey man i'm gonna live my life
like i ain't got nothing but this roll of the dice
i'm feeling like a monday but someday i'll be saturday night

oh i'm feeling like a monday but someday i'll be saturday night